Sometimes You Feel Lost
Being lost is not an awful thing. It gives you a sense of maturity as you get time to introspect yourself more closely. You can understand your flaws and how you can improve in those areas.
I believe time is the most crucial thing in our lives. But we often didn’t realize that as a result we wasted our precious time unknowingly by watching some random entertainment or reels or surfing mobiles unnecessarily.
Now coming to reels and other entertainment like Netflix, Hotstar, and Hoichoi all these are good when you are using it for less duration. But if you are addicted to it means you are losing your valuable time. Don’t do binge-watch because you will not realize when time will passing by.
Because of job stress, family pressure, and constant comparison, we do such things that society wants us to do. I read it somewhere to do great things in your life, you have to break the stereotype somewhere down the line. People will constantly judge even sometimes your close ones but don’t feel distressed at that time, just ignore all these and show them with your work. Your work action should be your answer to them.
I am sharing this for the first time in my writing. In my school days, there were few friends left in my daily connection & when I entered college among those there was a girl with whom I had studied since class 6 onwards and you can say my childhood best friend, she also joined me in the same college. You must be feeling Wao!!! how lucky I am !! got my best friend in college also. But who knows that this friendship is only one-sided it took me years to understand this. Lol !! but true. Though I understand this hypocrisy, maybe because of pure friendship and love for her I always overlooked it as a result I got to know she always underestimates me and makes fun of my flaws to others and back bitching about me but you know in front of me she was always very sugar-coated and nice. Even in friends group also she tries not to include me when there is any trip planning or something and the most hurtful thing is those people to whom I have introduced her, to them also if she is having some benefit she tries to be more nice and bitching about me when I am not around. That’s how manipulative she was. But you know when I was in crisis and facing my toughest time she wasn’t there. One fine day I decided just enough and stopped calling her from my side and she never called me back either then I realized she never put effort holding onto the friendship, it’s just me who is mad and still holds onto it because I thought we are childhood friends. So I detached myself from them. Even now also when I meet some of my old school friends they often ask me about her because everyone used to think we are best friends. I have no clue, not in touch anymore that’s what my answer to them.
Why I mentioned this story because in this process of detaching myself from the group and her, I was alone, lost and I cried a lot and felt immense pain because I had no one to talk. Maybe people were there but not those close to me for years. I just lost them. To be honest, they were never mine, It’s better to be alone than with toxic people. But in this process, I learned to love myself first, and I am quite happy. Never sacrifice your time, or priority for anyone who isn’t worth it like I did mistake for years.
So always love yourself first and even if you are lost, just don’t give up and keep trying and keep improving :)
